They call us Hopeless Dreamers

Men are cock monkets...yes I said cock monkets!

Situation A: My friend that wanted me to run away this weekend is still insisting that I do so. I can't. Absolutely no way! I really want to, but I cant. So, I invite him to come with me and spend the weekend with me...but noooooooooo! Then I told him that in two weekends I could get out of doing FSW and run away, but nooooooooooo he'll be away. Blah!

Situation B: A male friend of mine, who has a gf, wants to be more than just friends with me. I'm almost pathetic enough to agree. ALMOST! But the situation is so much more complicated than just what I wrote here.

Situation C: Hot rockstar from Chicago has invited me out to two different shows. Guess who is going to both. Im going to make him sing to me acousticly. Haha. But he is weird. Love him to death, but it's been different in the last year. Whoa, it's been a fucking year! Holy shit.

Situation D: Male friend is PERFECT. That scares me. Something has to be way wrong with him...no one is that perfect. He supports me with wrestling. He's attractive. Makes good money. My mom ADORES him to no end. I have major trust issues with guys...and yet I trust him more than others. He's a really good kisser too.


I decided I'm going to stay single and just love the male attention I am getting at the moment. It's different and I really like it.

There is slightly over a month until my paid account expires on this journal.

In October I will be updating solely on SassyStephie. So, make sure you add that journal to your friends if you want to keep in touch (other than myspace) and keep up with me.




And so this journal entry isn't so plain....

Last night I came home to a new set of rubber ducks (I collect them if you didnt know) from my mom.

They're all Halloween inspired.
(left - right) vampire, mummy, pumpkin, frankenstein, witch, and ghost.

( Rubber duckie you're the one )

Raw July 24th in Cleveland at the Quicken Loans Arena.


I have two tickets for sale.

Sec. 110
Row 13.
Seats 13 & 14.


Best offer gets them.


Ready, set, go.

just so you are all aware, I want that for Christmas.

You have 20 days to arrange.

Thank you.

Step One

- Make a post (public, friends locked, filtered...whatever you're comfortable with) to your LJ. The post should contain your list of 10 holiday wishes. The wishes can be anything at all, from simple and fandom-related ("I'd love a Snape/Hermione icon that's just for me") to medium ("I wish for _____ on DVD") to really big ("All I want for Christmas is a new car/computer/house/TV.") The important thing is, make sure these wishes are things you really, truly want.

- If you wish for real-life things (not fics or icons), make sure you include some sort of contact info in your post, whether it's your address or just your email address where Santa (or one of his elves) could get in touch with you.

Step Two

- Surf around your friends list (or friends friends, or just random journals) to see who has posted their list. And now here's the important part:

- If you see a wish you can grant, and it's in your heart to do so, make someone's wish come true. Sometimes someone's trash is another's treasure, and if you have a leather jacket you don't want or a gift certificate you won't use--or even know where you could get someone's dream purebred Basset Hound for free--do it.

You needn't spend money on these wishes unless you want to. The point isn't to put people out, it's to provide everyone a chance to be someone else's holiday elf--to spread the joy. Gifts can be made anonymously or not--it's your call.

There are no rules with this project, no guarantees, and no strings attached. Just...wish, and it might come true. Give, and you might receive. And you'll have the joy of knowing you made someone's holiday special.

My List:

a night alone with Tim
burned cds of songs you'd think I'd like...and playlists to go with them!
home made gifts
gift certificates to hot topic, best buy, or somewhere else rad
pretty eye make up
a new webcam
a new car
some new wrestling bios to read. (trips, shawn michaels, ric flair, etc.)
new livejournal layout
an apartment in either Chicago or Parkersburg.
ANYTHING that says "sassy"


I'm going to make this a public entry, but I am going to put my contact info into a friends only post. I'm also screening all comments.
I dont expect anyone to do/get me anything above, but this is a cute idea and helps others kind of know what I want.

Mostly Straight You scored 30 (-52 being completely gay, 0 being bisexual, and 52 being completely straight)

You are mainly heterosexual, but you have a few homosexual qualities. You much prefer the opposite sex, but you have a mild interest in the same sex. If you disapprove of homosexuality, it is likely that you act overly straight to deny your slight gay tendencies. If you are comfortable with your sexuality, you might be up for experimenting with members of the same sex if given the opportunity. If you are sexually inexperienced, you could shift on the spectrum at a later time depending on whether you have sexual encounters with the same sex and whether or not you like those encounters.

My test tracked 1 variable How you compared to other people your age and gender: You scored higher than 45% on Orientation

Link: The Sexuality Spectrum Test written by tall_man_54 on Ok Cupid, home of the 32-Type Dating Test

CrazyInCA75: hey there
Sassy2276: hi
CrazyInCA75: hows it goin?
Sassy2276: it's going, you?
CrazyInCA75: im not that interesting, lol
Sassy2276: ok
CrazyInCA75: yea...
Sassy2276: :-)
CrazyInCA75: i just went for a run so i'm all sweaty now, gross lol
Sassy2276: ah thats coo.
CrazyInCA75: are u online a lot?
Sassy2276: ya
CrazyInCA75: cool
Sassy2276: who is this
CrazyInCA75: andy 23/male/texas
Sassy2276: ok
CrazyInCA75: alright
CrazyInCA75: :-p
Sassy2276: :-)
CrazyInCA75: Please talk to me
Sassy2276: i dont know what to say
CrazyInCA75: :-)
CrazyInCA75: that's too bad
Sassy2276: well you imed me.
CrazyInCA75: what about me?
Sassy2276: so I dont know anything about you besides what you told me...shouldnt you inititate the convo
CrazyInCA75: is that a problem?
Sassy2276: no.....
CrazyInCA75: thats too bad
Sassy2276: ...ok
CrazyInCA75: it IS ok, ha
Sassy2276: are you on something?
CrazyInCA75: um ,no?
Sassy2276: ok
CrazyInCA75: You have been talking to a computer! One of your friends is reading the whole conversation and laughing it up right now! GET EVEN! Have the bot prank all your friends by visiting imprank.ebaumsworld(dot)com
Sassy2276: ok, whatever


I'm not in the mood for games today. how lame is that? If you were the friend....you need to seek entertainment somewhere else.

I was going to write this big long entry about Vegas, but I know that most of you wont read it and you'll go straight to the pictures anyways. So, I will let the pictures tell the story. They aren't in any particular order. Just random...

O BEWARE: there are 50 + pictures. So loading time might take quite a while.

( Vegas makes me look very photogenic. )

So thats the most of them. There are a few others, but you get the general idea. I had a blast and I plan on going again. Hopefully Christmas break. It wont be nearly as warm and I hope to take some more friends along...so if you are 21+ and want to go, let me know!

These are from Tuesday night. I'll post Battle of Champions tomorrow, if I have time.

( Will stole my camera...fucker )



Tonight Jon was too funny.

Jon: Don't go all Dr Phil on me now babe.


CLASSIC!

Here are some of the rated "g" or "pg" pictures...

Questions, concerns, and stories about this night are strictly prohibited...these pictures tell the stories that can be shared. If you wish to seek more information, too bad.

( I love rock and roll, so put another dime in the jukebox baby.. )

My lj wedding by chynafox
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best man	edenzwill
bridesmaid	hepaintsmeblue
you will have your last fling with	xdimhalox
registrar	emeraldprincess
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date of the wedding	May 17, 2020
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Quiz created with MemeGen!

So, I'm going to marry Jesy, Jesy will be my bridesmaid, and Jesy wants to secretly marry me herself.

Hmm, triple duty, Jesy you think you could handle that???

At least one of them is right. Jesy will be my bridesmaid if I ever get married.

Holy crap...

check this out.

My mom told me about this new thift store. So, of course I had to go and check it out. She said it was unusually clean and very nice. It's some chairty type place for some church.

So I went, at first i didnt find anything of interest. But then I found...

( this.... )

Anywho, I'm out to go decorate

Yayy for work today, i am in a great mood....strange eh? Hahaha.

Let me show you why.....


( Here's to you, the good life, and me. )

The downward sprial continues. Less than 4 months til my 21st!

A few people have asked me what I want for Christmas and I noticed today that Jesy had made a list on here and I thought to myself what a wonderdul idea.


1. Velvet Revolver cd
2. Something Coroprate-North cd
3. cd-rs
4. a paid livejournal account (for any amount of time)
5. any Marilyn Manson cd
6. 2005 planner (small enough to fit in my purse)
7. anything Tinkerbell
8. i love homemade gifts
9. picture albums/frames
10. Jeff Hardy/Randy Orton wrestling figures, shirts, pictures, whatever. I love them both.



Also, a few other pointers:
I love the color pink, cherries, leapord print, tinketbell, level 27, stickers, belts, converses..amoung other things.

Plus, you can NEVER go wrong with gift certificates to places like: Best Buy, Target, Hot Topic, Mongolian BBQ, Swensons, FYE, PACSUN, Rave, Deb, Spensers, book stores, and type of music stores.

There you go, if you want to purchase me something I gave you a few ideas. I did my best keeping it as cheap as possible considering most of us don't have an unlimited cash fund to buy gifts from.




Here's the list of people that I am done with, have started, or need to still figure out what to get them.

Jesy, Joe, Vanna, Diana, Deanna, Scott, Erin, Ashley, Jeff, Brandon, Elizabeth, Josh, Jordan, Katie, Aaron, Mark, and I am sure there are others. I am just being myself and forgetting.

This journal is friends only.

Want to be my friend, it's simple. Just reply to this entry.


Few rules:
1. DoNt tYpE lYKe thIs beCuZ it MakES U looK lYke an *ss. OmFg.
2. Don't start drama.


See, I told you it was simple.

I stole this from Jesy and it would make my day, if everyone or at least the whole 7 people that read this filled it out. Purrdy please?!?!

Haha.




**AM I**

ugly?
kind?
quiet?
loud?
shy?
weird?
selfish?
ghetto?
crazy?
hot?
cute?
pretty?
sexy?
nice?
mean?
immature?
rude?
cool?
stupid?
caring?
mature?
a friend?
more than a friend?
talkative?
boring?
beautiful?
creative?
smart?
a flirt?
slutty?
a psycho?
athletic?
confusing?
sweet?
funny?
hyper?
laid back?
perfect?

**JUST SOME QUESTIONS**

1. Do you think I'll get married?:
2. If u do..who do you think I'll marry?:
3. When is my birthday?:
4. Who is my best friend?:
5. Where did we meet?:
6. Have you ever had a dream about me?:
7. If you could change one thing about me what would it be?
8. Describe me in 3-5 words:
9. Do u think I'm a virgin?:
10. If you could tell me one last thing what would it be?:
11. If you could ask me anything..what would it be?:

**PERSONAL**

1. I am the________ person u know.
2. Would you like to kiss me?
3. Do you want to be my bf/gf?
4. Do u ever think about me off-line?
5. Would you ever ask me out?
b) Right now, what is the chance of that happening (in %)?
6. Have you ever had a crush on me?
7. Do you still?:
8. On a scale of 1-10, what would you rate my personality?
9. Pyhsically, what's my best feature?
10.Mentally, what's my best feature?

**LASTLY**

Do you wish we were closer? In what way?:

Yayyyy, I'm a punk rocker. Go me...stupid bitches. Some person imed me while I was away today saying "wow punk rocker I thought it was warped tour" cause I said jesy and I were at "warp". Apparently I have an online compulsive away message checker. Good job loser.


******** key note to jesy ******** that thing is not Thurs. It's Monday. WTF?! I dont know but I just checked kiss's website and its on Monday. I want to go--still!


Anyways, my fuckin day owned you bitches. Period. I missed a few of the bands I went to see, but that could not damper my day.

Let's see here is everyone I got to see today (performing) Atmosphere, Lars Fredrickson and the Bastards, Bad Religion, NFG, Taking Back Sunday, The Fuck Ups, From Autumn to Ashes, River City Rebels, Hazen Street, and more...I just cant think right now

People I got to meet and/or see again
Atmosphere, The Fucks Ups, River City Rebels, Avenged Sevenfold, Billy Talent, one of the guys from Yellowcard, Matt from Letter Kills, ARMY OF FRESHMAN!, Darin Jenkins (he is a skaterboarder on the tour--he liked me. Haha), Allister, Steve of Level 27, and prolly more...still cant think.

Maybe once all my pictures are developed I can remember more.

By far my favorite part was Army Of Freshman. They made me so happy. I asked the one to come home with me. He agreed. O damn. *bad stephie* I believe it was Chris. But I dont honestly remember. All I know he he kept hugging me and I got a picture with all of them in the tent and then he wanted one with just me..so I could send it to him. Awwwww. But I talked to Kai the most. Jesy and I helped him draw all over the table. Haha. It was rad. Kai promised they'd come back soon. LIke Novmeber. They are going over seas in October for a month and then a late fall/winter tour. I hope I can wait that long. Owen was pretty rad also. I met them all except Dan. He was hiding apparently.

Next best part was Travis remembering Jesy and I from the stage. He pointed to us and says "hey you were at the last show." During their show we left to go watch TBS and then came back and talked. These 12 year old girls were like stalking them and Chris was so happy that we were there to semi-protect them.

Next cool part was one of the skateboarders on the tour was like in love with me. Haha. We walked by him like 15 times and he like got into my way one of the times and said "damn." I said hi and we talked for a few minutes. We exchanged phone numbers and stuff. I have his personal home address, he told me to stop by sometime. Where is he from you ask....SAN DIEGO! Ya, I am there every day let me drive there now in fact.



Hmm other cool shit...
Some guy asked me for my autograph after The Fuck Ups. He was kidding, but that makes 2 times I was asked for my autograph within the laast month. Rockin!

I saw Joe. Havent seen him since he got fired. Miss him, lots.

I saw JP and Cody. I didnt think I'd see them there, but thats rad.

I got a new Level 27 shirt that makes me happy. As well as a new sticker cause Steve loves me. Or at least I like to think so.

I got to meet Avenged Sevenfold. I know I mentioned this, but do you realize how sexy they are? Also, their music...um hi, awesome.

I got to see Nate. Can we say Midtown on Sunday for free. Yay! Thats if Jesy and I get home in time from Chi town. Which...will happen.

Spending the whole day with Jesy and seeing everyone without having to leave.

Leaving was kinda rad too. Some boys were walking behind us, invited us to some party in Parma. I asked "what the fuck is in parma" and they were like us. I was like hahaha uh no. Also, we walked past the Odeon and some guys were standing outside hitting on some girls walking the opposite way and one screamed "are you legal?" The girls ignored him. So he said "Marco," he pauses for a response. None givin. So he says it again "marco" and I respond "polo" and he was like I love you. I was like ok. So, jokingly I said, "and I am legal." And he picked me up, spun me aroundand just hugged me tightly. It was kinda scary. HAHA. He is in some band...i forget which. Its local though. He was with Neil of Hardcore Marketing. So, when i hear the name again...I will remember it. Gaitlyn or something...whatever. Begins with a "g."


We went to Dennys. Yum! I got pretty pink ranch dressing again.


Ya, so I talked to some of Jesy's hot boys. The one from New Zealand had a hot accent. Jesy rocks at getting hot boys from over seas. Wait, what the fuck...she fucking owns at getting hot boys. End of discussion.


Anyways, I am going to bed. Work at 6am is going to come really fucking early.

101 Tips To be Hardcore
---------------------------------------------
1) Be tough at all times.
2) Never cheer after a show, only clap.
3) Be open minded in a "punch people" kind of way
4) Only the good hardcore bands have names that are sentences with bad grammar.
Boy Hits Car, Boy Sets Fire, Skycamefalling, Boy Sets Car-fire.
5) Ankles are tough so bring your socks down into your shoes so we can see them.
6) Tattoos are tough especially when they are on your calves. See Rule 5 on how
to see said tattoo more clearly.
7) Wear your hoody in the mosh pit because sweating like a wild pig makes you
look tough.
8) Don't admit you listen to heavy metal.
9) (Exception to rule Only admit you listen to heavy metal if you think it is ironic and you wear 80's cheese metal shirts.
10) Be a non-conformist, just like all your friends.
11) Practice hardcore dancing in front of your mirror and then try them out the next time Atreyu comes to town.
12) A hardcore band is only original if you call it something-core. Example
Screamcore, emocore, Screamocore, mathcore, or Medio-core.
13) Remember, it's fun to punch and kick kung fu style.
14) Keep it in the do-jo.
15) Real hardcore fans are called kids.
16) Complain how hardcore bands are playing with metal bands at all costs!
17) Have your own zine, website, production company or be in a band. Claim you are friends with the singer from Shai Hulud.
18) Tell people you work in the music industry.
19) More Ankles people!
20) Embrace everybody in the scene except for those people who are not you.
21) Refer to bands as old school or new school then act tough again.
22) Pretend that you get Dillinger Escape plan.
23) Shop at second hand stores and then go buy expensive shoes.
24) Beat people up and then go to bible study class.
25) Smoking and drinking and having sex before marriage is too trendy. Real hardcore tough guys abstain.
26) Whatever you do, don't let the singer on stage ever sing in the mic. Make sure you grab it from him and sing in it yourself, after all, you do a better
job singing then him. It's a wonder they didn't put you on the album.
27) Start your own hardcore band.
2 Have your logo resemble some random 80's product for nostalgia.
29) Talk about the scene any chance you get. Say as many obscure hardcore bands from NJ as possible.
*****30) If you are shy start an emo band so you don't have to look at the audience.*****
31) People who know more bands than you are better than you.
32) Add the Letter X before and after important words. XhardcorekidX XmoshfuckX
33) Never say "Did you hear the new Strung Out?" Unless you are attempting to be funny in which case stop it because hardcore kids are tough not funny.
34) It's merch not Merchandise.
35) Hardcore girls must wear head bands at all times.
36) Stretch your ears out to look more intimidating.
37) The bigger you stretch you ears out the more hardcore you are.
38) Your ear should be stretched out enough to accommodate a block of wood, a hubcap or a penis.
39) People in the front row are best used as a ladder/staircase to reach your goal... steal the mic away from the singer.
40) When people ask you if you like a band always say "I only like the old stuff" or "I haven't really gotten into the new stuff."
41) Buy all of that bands merch.
42) Wear your new merch at the next hardcore show.
43) Repeat steps 41 and 42
44) If you have to wear glasses make sure they are thick, black framed ones.
45) Don't tell anybody but make sure you try on your new vintage clothes and stud belt before heading out to see Poison the well.
46) Never admit you don't like Hatebreed and go see them live 12 times a year.
47) Complain that they are playing with Slayer but don't admit you actually like Slayer.
48) Complain at all costs.
49) Tag team hardcore dancing is cool
50) Real hardcore kids are really struggling photographers.
51) You don't go to hardcore concerts, you go to hardcore shows. BIG difference.
52) Name your hardcore dance moves things like "The mother fuck" or "kick that guys ass move" or better yet... stay home and cry.
53) Protect your body from swinging limbs by sacrificing your two arms.
54) Scream about love.
55) All age venues are important so you are not tempted to drink.
56) Claim you know a guy who knows a guy whose best friend was standing next to the guy who got his ass kicked during Converge. Bash the hardcore scene and then go see The Get Up Kids.
57) Anytime somebody mentions a band always say you know somebody in the band.
58) Wear your pins with honour! Shai Hulud, American Nightmare, Minor Threat and the purple heart of valour.
59) Velcro shoes are cool.
60) Don't admit that you have a crush on the singer from Walls of Jericho. If somebody asks, say you respect her as a musician only.
61) Your band name should contain one of the following words: Blood, Murder, Kill, Victim and butterfly.
62) Print your band name as if it was on a bad printing press. Actual graphics are for posers.
63) Sleep on a portrait painted prettier then everyone.
64) 100 bands from around the world to play in your city. All of them are the world's best hardcore bands. Every label represented, every hardcore genre
present. The venue is the best all-ages venue in the world. Tickets are $1.00.
It is your job to go around saying the festival should be free.
65) Record producers must make sure to pump the mid because mid is tough.
66) Re-issue your demos after every album.
67) When the band starts playing everybody join hands and make a big circle so we can watch the big kids play.
68) Crying on stage makes you a professional.
69) Complain some more.
70) Album covers must be made at home on Photoshop by your good friend.
71) If you are from New York NEVER smile in a promo pic. In fact always try to cross your arms and look into the camera as if you are going to beat up whom
ever is looking.
72) If you are from New Jersey NEVER smile in a promo pic either. In fact try to look like you just lost your girl friend to the hardcore band from New York. *****73)Never admit that Emo is Country music lyrics mixed with pop rock riffs and marketed by 17 year olds trying to make their friend be the next Dashboard
Confessional. *****
74) American Idol is your worst enemy. (But you voted for Ruben)
75) You can get away with glitter on your face as long as your stretched ear plugs are clear.
76) fuck beer, Got breast milk?
77) Bandanas are cool.
78) Bandanas with big X on them are cooler.
79) Bandanas with big X on them were cool last week you poser.
80) Your best friend is a guy named XattackX from Jersey who you chat with on MSN everyday. He is coming to see you one day. Really.
81) Chunky breakdowns in your songs are original and you should continue to do them despite every other band doing them which is clearly a rip off of your
band.
82) Judge other bands and always compare them to the socio-cultural effects of the band Integrity.
83) Look up Socio-cultural in the dictionary and then get offended.
84) Green Day is the real reason you are still alive.
85) Describe your group of friends as "the scene" and then watch bootlegs of last weeks
86) Obey the laws of the hardcore scene or forever be banished from the circle.
87) When somebody asks you what is hardcore respond with "I am hardcore" then punch somebody in the face for looking at you wrong.
88) Keep punching
89) Kick a little too
90) Punch
91) Add a threat about their mother for good measure.
92) Pretend you are won the fight then pickup your dismembered left arm.
93) You are wearing the same thing as the 40-year old gas pump attendant but for some strange mystical reason you are cooler than he is.
94) Tell everybody that Trustkill Records are too trendy.
95) Did you stop acting tough? I saw you hug that teddy bear.
96) Pierce you tits and tattoo your body.
97) Straight bangs means straight-edge
98) Being vegan means you can't swallow sperm.
99) When in doubt MOCK everything
100) Take everything personally.
101) Assume this list is about you

Stephanie in 2004 = Poor little white girl

CDs coming out this year i will want:
Good Charlotte
Sugarcult
Avril
New Found Glory
All American Rejects
The Starting Line
Sum 41
Green Day
The Used

Concerts/Shows I am going to for sure already:
Mest
Britney Spears
The Darkness
Sugarcult


Concerts plannin on going just need to know dates:
Several Warped Tour dates.
OzzFest (if they have it)
Good Charlotte (you know they will tour after their cd)

and any of those bands above that go on tour.

Thats my baby!! I love this picture. A whole bunch!








The rest of the pictures are being extremely anal. So once they stop being stupid, I will add them on here.